How do you prepare to let a loved one go to their final transition? You simply can't.
This past weekend we celebrated my mother's 81st Birthday, but she almost didn't make it to the party.
I've been seeing her go steadily downhill and it's heartbreaking to witness, she is after all, my mother.
Last September she was diagnosed with Stage 4 lung cancer with 6 months to live. She had 3 great-grandchildren on the way(for a total of 13), was holding on to see them, and now she has. Her next objective is to see her sister and brother who are coming their cottages in the next couple of weeks, and I suspect she will not be with us for much longer once she sees and spends time with them.
In the past 15 years I stood at the deathbed of 4 other family members, 3 of them within a 16 month time period, so I know what to expect; it's one of the most difficult things I've ever had to experience.
So this is the part where I let go of selfishly wanting her to be with us longer. She's been living at home alone, refusing to go to long term care, but every day it is getting more apparent that it is where she needs to be.
It seems unfair to be going through this again, especially at this time in my own life; I've been on a continuous journey of awareness, healing and light, but it's all a part of life on earth. I am praying for strength for my siblings and I as we prepare to see my mother off to her final transition with love, grace and gratitude for the life she has given us and the one she has devoted to us.
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